my recent stress~~

Hey girls~~

Really happy that you all so actively in our share blogs. Yes~ as Peggy said once i open this share blog, i just feeling happy and my stress will gone. Every morning, after my company pc switches on, i sure will go to our share blog view who else write a blog there. hehehe...really sorry that i also not a active person to update blog here.

Peggy~~ i know you are busy on your project, assignments, final thesis.... however you still bring your valuable time to drop a blog here. Thank you for your valuable time~ Sure!! we four will always besides you give you fully supports. therefore, once you are feeling stress in your homework, just drop a shorter blog tell us how you are.

Jess~~ really happy!!i like your artistry blog. you blog description so excellent. really envy you that your english are so great. i need to put more efforts to same as you. wahahaha...may be some day i can....how about your honey moon?? please upload some beautifuls photo for us to jealous on you. please please please..... hehehe..and also describes as much as you can. ok??

Erica~~ how are you??hehhe...your blog keeps to remind our college happy moment was in canteen. although in canteen moment just a part, it's so fun and happy.please update us your news in Johor oh. i know you always keep the problems, because you worry us to worry about you right??hey buddy~please!! dont be that. as a "Ji Mui", anything can share. sometimes sharing can let us solve problem faster.ok?? promise us~let us know your news! heheh..

Molly~~ you are the one i know the most because we always chatting through MSN. hehehe...the happiest thing is you are the one superactive in our share blog. thank you so much~ you blog are pretty nice!!i love them so much. your blog also acts as "enzyme" and always motivates me to drop a blog here. thank you so much. hope that i can drop as many blogs as i can. ok?!

Tammy~~ yes~ is me. i just want to share with you all that i am so down with my work. i really unhappy with my recent job. may be i am too pressure and stress. i am just thinking the pressure comes from my bosses( 4 boss) or i give myself too much pressure. you all know what~~every sunday i sure cant seep tight. sometimes rolling at bed until midnight 1 am ++ i stil awake. what kind of suffer i am facing?i dont know....may be i am just worrying to face my bosses once i get into office. why i have 4 boss? let me explain to you all roughly.one is the bi boss( japanese boss), one is old boss who already retired but hired back by company with contract til next year June, two are new boss~ malay boss and chinese boss.

The closer boss with me is the old boss. i under him once iam in this company. i am respect to him. just sometimes i really can not stand with because i always " mou tuin tuin" scolded by him when his mood no good. last time, i just want to report him that at production got some happen, then after that i will solve the problems myself. however, i din finish my report, he scolded me that had problem please solve them yourselve dont come and ask me how to solve the problems. "what?" i did not mean him to help me solve the problem , i just to report and inform him about the problem. if i dit not inform him, later he come and scolds me why i did not report to him? what 's a silly and self-contradictiry situation.Sometimes i really dont know need to report to him or not. Now...i am smarter than before. I am just solve the problem first in a short time, then just to report to him.

Besides, last week i took a leave on 1st of December because need to participate Peter's friend wedding. After i pass the apply form, he scolded me again. what 's going on?? why i have been scolded. He said"why you always take leave on early month and end of month? Next time can not take leave on early month or end of month. " i answered that"because I need to participate friend's wedding". He shoot me again" friend's wedding is important than working? I think you should put more efforts on your job than playing." after this sentences came out from his mouth, i want shoot him back that " i am prefer playing than working". luckily this answer did not come out because i know i stil respect him. That day I am really unhappy.. felt down that why I Take leave also need to consider when I can not take? when i just can take? what's a silly joke for me. i really can not accept this. i started getting frustrated on him... Yes~ although i always scolded by him, he's the one i respect the most.

The Japanese boss is the one really hard to deal with…feeling difficulty to handle with. Why like this? Because he always requests somethings and some data which are not really useful but he still want me to find it. Yes..what he say or requests, you just need to follow. last time, i just under him and old boss. so i feeling quite free and easy.

But the nightmare is coming after the 2 new bosses joined this company. Now my direct superior is Malay boss. Last time I quite impressed on him. Because what he said out are quite logically. I try to follow him. But time is the thing can prove everything. i started getting disappointed of him. now he working here already 6 months more. Last month, my big big big Japanese boss give him another 2 more months to let him perform himself because last 5 months his performances was failed. Why I started feeling disapported with him? Yes~ I can not " tahan lagi"..u all know thy? Haiz… he try to push all the things which are Japanses boss want him to do. What the japanese boss informed him, he just come to my place and want me to do. Started from the day he joined, my job tasks getting more and more. 5 months all departments documents i have not tidy yet. Company re-certificate audit is coming soon, they just start to update and review documents. now, i busy like hell. damn busy....somemore, he push many jobs to me everyday, i start feeling pressure and stress. He really did not concern of my job loads. What Japanese requested , he just promised him and placed a due date. "@%$#!*&%(^^$....." I really want to $%@^& him. Sometimes something can not or can say no need to do, as a boss as QA deparment, he can try to explain to japanese boss and no need waste my time. haiz...he did not act as boss. just like a " Dog" following what japanese boss said. i dislike him very much now. i told Molly that " i am so bad" because i really hope he can not pass his probation period and kick out from this company. huh~~ i am so kind, why i stil had this bad thought? hehehe...

anyway, I told myself that if Malay boss pass his probation period then I think after getting bonus I try to find other job and resign here. I know my company benefit is better than other company much more. However, I really can not co-operate and work with him. May be someday or somehow...i can find a better job. Wish me ya~~~

The other " ma fan yau" is new chinese boss. He really wordy…. He can just stand there and talk to you up to one hours more. What kind of boss? Verybody scared of him because once you talk to him, his non-stop speaking starts…. Just talk talk talk… I seldom contact with him because he in charge in production. sometimes he came to me because he also want to shoot me that" as a QA engineer, you need to ....you need to.... you can not to....you shall do..... what you would..." come on~~ faster strike into points. dont just talk and talk.

you all know what they two new boss got many nickname. Some gave the chinese boss as " clergyman" ( Jess ~ sorry. I not mean to say something bad about clergyman. Hope you don’t mind) because he is too wordy. Some gave the Malay boss as" professal", some gave him as " minister of finance" because he is same name with minister of finance. some said big big big hired them to give talk or seminar in company. because they two just know how to talk and how to speak out. but dont know how to do. Yes~ as normal. they are normal manager because manager jsut know how to talk and dont know how to do. do you all agree?? wahahhaha...

ok..i need to stop my blog here. Because I need to busy on other messy and unuseful things. Haiz…

miss u all so much!!

Love you all!!

Friendship forever!!

Posted by Tammy