The Saddest Day in My 4-yrs Pharmacy Student Life

Buddies...I really Miss U all!!! Really Hope that you all are around me now and accompany me..
I'm waiting this coming..we can chat throughout the day and nite.:)
On 23th April, I took my last semester result (sem8).
Before i taking, it's already a rumour spread around that this sem is the worst result for all of us.
In total, 16 ppl over 75 ppl failed and only 4 ppl graduated with first class.
When i heard this, i oledi know that i m not the one include in first class.
Because, in Sem 5, onli 5 ppl maintained their CGPA in first class, proudly, i was one of them.
But, my CGPA was the lowest among 5 of us.
So, in sem8, i really worked 2-3X harder than normal.
Almost all the reports i wrote aso praised by lecturers and even the hospital pharmacist.
Thus, before the formal date of released of the result, i kept my finger cross so that can maintain the same grade.
But, When i open the envelope, How come?
I got very bad result, with 2A1B1C...
"C"...how come it's true?I really cant accept at first.
I tot i did quite ok with that paper.I knew tat cant get "A" coz i didnt do perfectly.
But, at least "B", right?
I kept holding my tears in front of my cousemates, the atmosphere there really "weird".
So many ppl failed, my best fren keep asking me holding my tear, coz will make those fail very angry and sad.
I was forced to smile in front of them.but, i knew that they all sure know i m very sad too.
Then, once reach home, there was nobody at home.
The home was so quite..
I called to my mum and took her this result, and i couldn't control it again.
I Cried!!....My mum so worries and kept console me..
But, i really sad. U know the feeling of 4-yrs hard works and "disappear" in 1 day?
I cried..cried and cried...
And i received so many calls, my daddy, brothers, sis-in laws, grandmum, and even my aunty who holiday in LOndon now. (aunty that paid my school fee)
At ist, they tot i Failed oledi..coz my mum cant differentiate ist class and second upper class.:).
I told them NOPE...I will Graduate with second upper class...when i told them, i continue...crying...
They kept laugh on me..they said is OK..
But, tis is the ist time i didnt get ist place..
In secondary school, i always got As..sure got some Bs la..
In Tarc, I graduated with disntiction and with CGPA 3.90.
But now..My CGPA only 3.64 and graduate with second upper class.
Is really sad..disappointed...
I know i cant blame myself, coz i really tried my best.
Now, i'm okay. If i tell u all that i'm totally okay, is impossible.
Please give me some times, i will okay soon..
But, this may me my whole life "regretness" coz cant get ist class in pharmacy.:)
Now..what i need to concentrate is my future working life.
I know that working life is total differently from study life.
After i start working, i cant depend on family for $$$$...
I must plan and use my salary carefully.
No matter ist class or second class..we still earn the same salary, hehe..
And i wont further my master so fast..
Maybe after i getting marry and settle down, onli consider the master.
Master in clinical pharmacy js like the working as hospital pharmacist, js i need submit reports.
There are no classess and exams for the master course.
And it takes 1-2 yrs. I still can work as pharmacist while studying.
But, there is my future plan.
I need "cool down" ist..dont 1 study now.:)

Buddies...now..I'm announce here.
I'll graduate on 31 May 2009 as Bachelor of Pharmacy (Hons)

Four-years Already...DOnt worry..
I never forget my promise on you all...
Each of u can get ONE condom..hahaha...except Jess..i think u noneed...
MUakss...LOve You all!!!